Doug and I tested positive for Covid over the holidays.
Our symptoms started out quite mild — feeling tired, a little achy, a small cough, and a scratchy throat.
We went to be tested just to be on the safe side.
The next day, we received our results. Doug tested positive and I tested negative. We had the same symptoms so I was quite sure I had it. Then, later in the day, I received another notice that I tested positive, followed by yet another message that my test was negative.
I made a few phone calls to clear up the confusion and finally was told that my test was absolutely positive, which explained my worsening symptoms.
We weren’t sure what to expect from the famed COVID, and we honestly wondered what our experience would be like. We know of people who have died, others who have been hospitalized, and some who have reported they’ve never been sicker in their lives. Then, we know many who contracted it and had very mild symptoms and some who had no symptoms at all.
So, we weren’t sure where we’d fall in that spectrum.
Just before we were diagnosed, we were notified that a sister-in-law who had the virus ended up going to the hospital, Then, she was told she probably wouldn’t make it through the night!
We were shocked and devastated that it progressed that far so quickly.
Miraculously, she made it through the night for which we are all so grateful. But she spent several weeks in the ICU and is just barely being released to go to a rehab center. Her struggle is not over.
With that on our minds, we checked in with each other repeatedly… how are you? Any changes? Are you better or worse? Do you have a fever? Are you hydrated? Have you eaten? Are you breathing okay?
We are so grateful for our friends, neighbors and family who checked on us regularly, brought us meals, shoveled our driveway, delivered our groceries, dropped off Advil, hot soup, bread, and so much more.
We both had all the classic symptoms. I lost my sense of smell and Doug lost his sense of taste and smell. Over three weeks later, Doug still can’t taste or smell although he is making progress.
I think what surprised us the most is that the symptoms linger — especially the fatigue. We felt a gentle lift of the symptoms after the two-week marker but the fatigue, aches, and pains hang on and randomly reappear. Just as we start feeling like we might be moving out of COVID land, we experience a little setback, which we understand is quite common.
We had a few sobering conversations and asked each other some questions we never thought we’d be asking.
What if things turn south fast? Are we ready for that?
What if we have a sudden decline, have to go to the hospital, and get the news, like our family member, that we likely won’t make it through the night? Are we ready for that? Are our affairs in order?
While we honestly never really felt in danger of that, we couldn’t help but wonder.
We thought about all the people who have died during this pandemic and all of those who have had much more serious battles than ours. Did they see it coming?
The one thing we know is that despite what people say, Covid is real. It’s miserable, and it’s worth taking all the precautions necessary to avoid it.
My daughter, Sara, came to drop off groceries for us one afternoon. She rang the doorbell, left the groceries on the porch, and then walked back to the sidewalk in front of our house. We opened the door, picked up the groceries, and waved to her from the entryway of our house. We were all in masks and more than six feet apart.
That moment was a poignant one for me. I felt like I had stepped into the footage of a news program like so many we’ve seen of separated family members.
I hate COVID and all the chaos, confusion, heartache, loss, grief, sickness, fear, anxiety, and isolation it has brought into our world. But at the same time, I want to embrace the lessons I’ve learned from it and I hope that when it’s all over, I remember them.
In one of our conversations, Doug said, “This has been a wake-up call on so many levels, hasn’t it?”
Yes, it absolutely has been a wake-up call. But the question is what has it awakened? How will we be different now?
Since this virus hit me right after I had surgery to repair a torn rotator cuff, I’ve had a lot of time to think — too much time to think, actually.
One of the things I learned is that I need to build a better boat.
Let me explain…
Kenny Chesney sings a beautiful song called Better Boat. Here are the lyrics:
I ain't lonely, but I spend a lot of time alone More than I'd like to, but I'm okay with staying home My how the last few months have changed I'm smilin' more despite the pain I breathe in, I breathe out Got friends to call who let me talk about What ain't working, what's still hurtin' All the things I feel like cussing out Now and then I let it go I ride the waves I can't control I'm learning how to build a better boat I hate waiting, ain't no patience in these hands I'm not complaining, sometimes it's hard to change a man I think I'm stronger than I was I'll let God do what He does I breathe in, I breathe out Got friends to call who let me talk about What ain't working, what's still hurtin' All the things I feel like cussing out Now and then I let it go I ride the waves I can't control I'm learning how to build a better boat
I hope that I can build a better, stronger, more resilient boat to help me ride the waves I can’t control a little bit better. I also hope I can trust God and let him do what he does and not lose faith.
What about you? What has your COVID experience been like? I’d love to hear your thoughts.