Cancer Graduation Day

It finally came. The day I've been looking forward to for 10 years. I went to see my oncologist yesterday and she said, "Congratulations. You have graduated from oncology." Oncology -- the study and treatment of tumors. The field of medicine that is devoted to cancer. About a month ago I went to the breast surgeon's office and she said, "You don't need to come back anymore unless it gives you peace of mind to keep coming." No thank you, I told her, I will not be back. I am done with … [Read more...]

I am here. Here I am.

I enjoy yoga, but sometimes yoga teachers speak in such vague and abstract terms that I feel totally confused. After awhile, they sound like whirring fans -- creating white noise. Their words come at me like dancing, fluffy feathers or swirling snowflakes that melt as soon as they land on me. Most of the time, I dutifully follow their instructive cues. But sometimes, I just want to say, “WHAT are you talking about?” “Welcome to class. I want you to just be where you are today. Be … [Read more...]

To blog or not to blog

Today is one of those days when I want to blog, but I'm not sure it's a good idea. I want to blog because I want to whine, complain, and rant. Those are usually not good reasons for blogging. But, since my fingers are moving so quickly, I will respect the urge to write. Read on at your own peril. It all started with the brave goal of standing on the scale this morning after a weekend of too many indulgences. Stunned by the number staring back at me, I went on a … [Read more...]

Flu Season? I’ve got what you need

Flu season reminds me of my mom's medical advice and remedies. Ever heard of paregoric? Paregoric was the go-to medicine of my childhood. When I called my Mom when Sara was a baby to tell her that Sara had colic and cried nonstop for several hours at a time, she said, "Oh that baby needs paregoric!" Paregoric is a combination of some form of opium mixed with a compound from a camphor tree that is used in insect repellant.  Great stuff for a baby. It was a popular cure-all in the … [Read more...]

Reluctantly Getting My Pink On

I love autumn, but I'm actually looking forward to October being over. I'm tired of the pink palooza. As a breast cancer survivor, however, I feel like I should do my part to raise awareness. (That's why I buy a pink t-shirt at the Lucy store every year.) After all, the statistics are still that one in eight women will get this nasty disease. I certainly never thought it would be me. I discovered I … [Read more...]