For the last several months, I have had an ongoing debate about this blog…
Should I keep writing or give it up?
I blog for purely selfish reasons — writing helps me figure out what I’m thinking and feeling.
No product to promote, no message to shout or cause to advance.
I just like to write.
The most common comment I receive about my blog posts is, “You always write what I’m thinking!” Knowing my posts resonate with others motivates me to keep writing.
Lately, however, I’ve wondered because I seem to be thinking about different kinds of things — things that indicate a new stage of life, so I’m not sure whether they still resonate.
Here is a partial list:
- Funerals. I’ve attended a lot of them lately, mostly parents of friends. That says something, doesn’t it?
- Making new friends, keeping up with old ones.
- Missing my mom every single day.
- Parenting adult children — How do you do that? What is my role now? How do you know when to stand back and when to jump in?
- Planning a high school class reunion when for the first time, my brother’s name is on the “deceased” list of classmates.
- What it’s like to retire or semi-retire or whatever we call what we’re doing.
- How strange it feels not to have a template for what’s next in life.
- Living in the belly of the beast in terms of religion.
- Selling our home on the Outer Banks, our last toehold on the east coast.
- Going on a church mission — when is the right time to do that? And, how do people just up and leave their homes and lives for two years?
And, that’s probably not everything.
Are these relatable topics?
Maybe the crux of this dilemma is not in the specifics of what I’m wondering about, but the overarching theme that I’m in a new phase of life, and I don’t have anything figured out.
Ironically, at this stage of my life, I have less figured out than ever before.
As I write this, I think of Norman Thayer in the movie, “On Golden Pond.” (I realize that’s an early 1980s reference that may be lost on some.)
When the movie came out, I laughed at Norman, who at 80-years-old, perused the want-ads, hoping to find a “career opportunity.” (I do that!)
I understand now that he didn’t really want a job, he just wanted to feel relevant and have a well-defined daily routine and path because he was in a new stage of life, one that frightened him in some ways.
I’m not 80 and I’m not lost like poor Norman, but I get the larger point of him trying to figure out his life when everything seemed to be new and different.
Now, the point of this blog is not to have my friends tell me I’m relevant, well-qualified for a job or to solicit comments about my capabilities. It’s just to point out that new phases of life bring new questions and challenges.
Does anybody else want an accurate GPS for life that says turn right, go three miles, turn left, make a U-turn or even “rerouting?”
If only Siri or Alexa could help us with that!
In all stages of life, there are unanswered questions and we have no choice but to walk by faith, believing that the answer is just around the corner or that the path is about to appear — if not the entire road, at least the next step.
When you’re traveling in the ruts, you want the freedom to move out of them.
When the ruts are gone — like Norman Thayer’s — you might not want the old ones back, but you want new ones to reappear because having your feet on a path toward your envisioned destination brings peace, security, hope, and excitement.
In the end, maybe all the things I think about are the same things everybody else thinks about (with some variations on the theme)– change, what’s next? Where are the ruts in the road? Where is this unseen road taking me?
Maybe, no matter what stage of life we’re in, we never really have it figured out.
I guess it comes down to that elusive concept of faith.
We have to believe we’re on a good path, leading to a beautiful place — even when, from where we stand, we can’t see the path, where it’s going or where we’ll end up.
So, maybe you don’t miss your mom every day and you don’t wonder about how to be a good parent to adult children or how to retire well or any of my other concerns. But, I’m sure you have some questions you’re asking about your future and your path.
Am I right?
And, maybe I just keep blogging because even if nobody else learns something, I do.
13 thoughts on “Finding a Life Plan”
Some of your current questions really resonate with me! Like parenting adult children — I never even thought that was a thing before mine started to get out in the world, which may mean I wasn’t paying attention, but still. It can be hard! Other topics might not resonate with me now but probably will in my future, so I still find them interesting and relevant and important. So I think it’d be great if you kept blogging, especially if you enjoy it!
Thanks Erin! How are you doing? I miss seeing you.
I always love your beautifully written blog posts. Definitely continue 🙂
Thanks Barb. It’s good to have a cousin and famous blogger in my corner! 🙂
Your words, “We have to believe we’re on a good path, leading to a beautiful place — even when, from where we stand, we can’t see the path, where it’s going or where we’ll end up.” resonate with me. It’s about changes in life and figuring out new directions. Here’s to the patience and faith to persevere and the ability to hopefully look back with eyes that can appreciate the path we’ve walked. Thanks for writing.
Beautifully stated Sara!
Laurie, you have plenty to do. Can’t understand why you feel this way.
Many respects, your Mom, your best friend, is gone & every funeral you attend, you come back to your Mom. Your daughter’s cherish, love & need you always. So spit it out.
Probably because you are snowed in out there. So wake up each day & Say “Laurie you are happy & beautiful.” Jump up & down at least 10 times. You are ready for the new day!
xoxo Love Greg
Laurie, I am not selling a home on the Outer Banks or contemplating a church mission but aside from that, your list is eerily similar to mine (or it would be were I organized enough to actually have a list). Please keep sharing your words and your thoughts and your insights and your heart with us. I’m always happy to see a new installment appear, and I’ll bet I am not alone.
Thanks Betty! You know what it means to need to write!! We better both keep doing it!
You’re a beautiful writer, beautiful soul, example and friend! Keep writing! Glad we can cheer each other on as we all navigate the changes of our lives. XO
Thanks Jennifer! Keep teaching me how to do it!
Laurie, I love your writing. I find it so refreshing and personal. You will know when you’re done with it.
Thanks Tami! Looking forward to seeing you in June!